A girl with five ties - Alexander Black - Bog

Lab, experiments, Dr. Rein's constant threats and admonishments, rats, mice, endless hours of working... We are back in hell, and here are this week's horror stories from academia.
When I get drunk, sometimes the manner in which I construe dimension begins to change. Everything becomes smaller and more diminutive. I know other people don't have the same experience. Distances become farther and people look like hobbits. I looked this up once and there is such thing as an "Alice in Wonderland" syndrome. I think that must be my problem
Right now, all I truly want is to return to Joel's apartment. And yet, I somehow can't stand the idea of him touching me. I like sex-believe me, but there is also some sort of demon inside me which makes me hate any person who gets too close. Whether it's Joel, Chuck.... Why can't I just get over it? Because it feels good to have them. I feel good that they need me.
Chloe is a Ph. D. student struggling to survive in a ruthless environment of academic bullying and exploitation. We accompany her through a deepening crisis of mental and physical health and slowly uncover the traumas which lead her to develop a severe eating disorder. Her world is dominated by the tyrannical Dr. Rein, her supervisor, who forces his researchers to work unimaginably long hours, threatening to withhold funding and postponing his students' graduation. Chloe seeks solace in the arms of the many men who surround her, developing a complex network of lovers. But how long will it be before her liaisons begin to unravel? Can she overcome her inner demons and recover a healthy state of body and mind? Is it just a case of finally finding the right man?