Who Would I Be Without - James Patrick McDonald - Bog

A single thought haunts Nathan Vrite: I'm not good enough. That unconscious message drives him to dangerous extremes for years, jockeying for social acceptance one moment and sinking into a fog of alcohol and drugs the next. Now in his forties, Nathan has yet to uncover the joy and inner peace he glimpsed through a decade of increasing self-honesty that sobriety offers, and he unknowingly remains mired in the quiet desperation of a disingenuous life. When he unexpectedly falls in love, a momentary lapse of his coveted invulnerability leaves Nathan intrigued. The enormity of emotion that love's betrayal releases awakens the willingness Nathan needs to honor his emerging inner knowing. It leads him on a courageous quest for this most elusive peace that takes him across the country and into the darkest depths of his own soul. This empowering novel is "based on a true story of a little willingness," a portrait of an ordinary man on a life-changing journey of self-discovery.